Some of you may have been wondering where I have been lately. I feel like a bit of a stranger on my own blog right now and it has been months since I last wrote anything so please be gentle with me.
We have had months of what can only be described as an emotional roller coaster.
It all started really from the day we decided to go ahead and book our wedding date and venue. Our dream venue had a cancellation so we went for it! This was in late February and the wedding is on 4th June...it was going to take a lot of planning but we could do it right?
Days later while I was trying on what would become my chosen wedding dress, Joe was rushed to hospital with acute gastritis and was in a lot of pain. Luckily his stomach hadn't been too badly damaged so some medicine and a strict diet plan meant he was well enough to go home. We had no idea that was just the start of our worries.
Not long after leaving the hospital Joe found a large tumour in his buttock. It has baffled countless doctors and he has been poked and prodded constantly. MRI'S, Ultrasounds, CT scans and had 3 Biopsy's. Weeks of not knowing if it was benign or the dreaded C word have resulted in worry, sleepless nights, lots of tears and endless hospital visits. The tumour appeared on imagery to be 'nasty' but the first 2 biopsy results came back clear of cancerous cells so a 3rd open biopsy was been carried out.
This week we sat for 2 hours anxiously waiting before being told that unfortunately the 3rd biopsy showed cancerous cells and Joe has been diagnosed with a low grade fibromyxoid sarcoma. This type of sarcoma (a soft tissue tumour) is extremely rare but fortunately where it is located should be straightforward to remove. It is also encapsulated meaning it won't spread but there is a small chance of recurrence which means Joe will need regular checkups for the next 10 years.
Joe is perfectly well in himself which to him is frustrating. Despite having a bum cheek like Kim K you wouldn't think there was anything wrong with him. He currently has no symptoms and he is at work until his surgery date keeping busy and generally enjoying a bit of normality. I am so proud of how strong he is being and although we have had lots of tears I think this has made us appreciate our beautiful family and want to make the most of every single day together.
The light at the end of the tunnel...
Amongst all this madness we also discovered we are expecting Baby #2! Those of you that read regularly will know we have been trying for a baby for a long time now and after our miscarriage in September we are over the moon to be expecting again. I have been so anxious about the pregnancy especially with all of the stress we have been through with Joe's diagnosis but we have a strong, healthy, happy baby in there and we are so desperate to get back to normality by the time baby is due.
I feel like I have aged 10 years in the last 3 months and boy does something like this make you see the world in a whole new light! We have had to be so brave and poor Ted has had a really tough time of things too but we are trying to keep life as normal as we can for him right now. He knows Daddy has been poorly and kids aren't stupid but he seems much happier at the moment and we all have high hopes that Joe's op will go well and he will kick cancer's butt!
So that is where we are at right now. 12 weeks pregnant, 6 weeks from our wedding day and keeping everything crossed for a bright and happy future.
Life is short. Family is important and Love is everything!