We have played in the paddling pool, had snuggles in the sunshine and sang nursery rhymes.
|Playing in the Paddling Pool|
Not having to be cook, cleaner, chief organiser, employee, tax payer or tennant. To just love and enjoy every second of my little boy before he grows up.
I am having to sort out going back to work in a couple of months and it scares me to think of leaving him behind. No matter how much I trust whoever I leave him with I will hate not seeing him every minute of every day.
It breaks my heart thinking of him being sad and me not being there to comfort him. I worry that whoever he is looked after by will influence his upbringing and I want to teach him our morals and beliefs without them being tainted by someone elses views.
I wish we were in a financial situation for me to not have to go to work but like most families, things are tight and we must do what we have to to benefit Ted in the long run. I know all this but it doesn't make it any easier.
|Cuddles in the Sunshine|
I have to find a way to trust that Ted will be ok, that I will be ok, that I am doing the right thing and in turn providing him with a happy life where he has everything he will ever need.