When preparing for the birth of my baby boy there were so many things going through my head but the one thing that I didn't even consider was what could go wrong.
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All the books I read and forums I scoured for answers were amazing, they helped me when I had any niggles or concerns and put my mind at ease throughout the birth. The midwives in the hospital were fantastic when I suffered from Hyperemesis gravidarum for the first 4months and the online chat on Cow & Gate's website was a godsend when I felt over run with hormones and just needed someone to assure me it was all normal.
But, nothing prepared me for that moment when my labour took an unexpected turn and I was told I needed to have an emergency caesarian as my baby was stuck.
No labour is the same and mine was far from what I had expected. I had 3 failed stretch and sweeps after being told my baby was on the large side and eventually was induced 2days before his due date. After a day of mild contractions nothing prepared me for the enormous POP I felt and heard when my waters broke or the shock that took over my body and left me shaking for 5 solid minutes afterwards!
No amount of forums and books could prepare me for complications we faced when my baby wouldn't turn his head and shoulders and no amount of breathing technique's or relaxation CD's could have prepared me for the shock of being told I had to have an emergency cesarean.
As those words came out of the doctors mouth my heart sank, I took one look at my fiance and mum and knew they were thinking the same as me...this was not what we expected.
Within 30seconds I was being rushed into theatre leaving my birth partners behind and my mind filled with 'what ifs'. I had never even stayed in hospital before falling pregnant let alone having an operation. I felt so scared and as the tears streamed down my face all I could ask was "when will I get to see my baby?"
It felt like an eternity waiting for all the prep to take place before my fiance was allowed in the room and I held my midwifes hand so tight as I prayed for everything to be ok.
Eventually my fiance was allowed in and after about half an hour of waiting and crying and being sick and tugged about....out came my beautiful slightly grey baby! He was whisked into a corner and the pediatrician carried out all his checks. All I could see was his tiny legs wiggling about and when he let out a tiny little cry my heart almost burst!
The relief I felt was so intense and when I kissed my baby boy for the very first time all the fear and uncertainty washed away and in its place was only love.
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"If Only I'd Known....What could go wrong....but would turn out ok in the end!"
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