Friday, 9 October 2015
Thursday, 17 September 2015
Dearest Dream Baby.
It doesn't quite feel real. One day I was about to become a Mum of two. Ted was going to be a big brother and we were finally going to be a family of four.
The second that test result appeared I saw you. I saw my bump steadily growing. You entering the world. Ted meeting you for the first time and our whole life was mapped out before me.
I dared to dream.
Perhaps because I wanted you so bad I convinced myself that that faint cross of a positive test was because my hormone levels weren't high enough yet. A cross was a cross right?
We couldn't contain our happiness and told our loved ones including Ted. He kissed my stomach that night. He held me and whispered "ah baby". I felt my heart burst with pride.
The next day my heart broke.
Two days. Just two days and I went from feeling the happiest I think I have ever been to feeling completely and utterly broken.
How can I feel like this? I was 6 weeks along if that.
Were you even there? A 6 week old foetus has a heartbeat but was I really 6 weeks or was it just a couple of weeks and a bundle of cells?
I will never know but it's not the contents of my womb I am grieving for. It is the dream. The dream of a child that would never be.
The world is moving on around me. People walk past and all I can think is how they just don't know what is going on inside my body. I don't begrudge them for that. Life must go on and my head tells me I need to be strong, dust myself off and soldier on through.
I am always fighting a losing battle with my logical mind and my emotions. This day is no different.
I learnt today that I am great at putting on a brave face. I manage to hide my pain deep down where nobody really knows it's there. I smile, make jokes, act like everything is normal but it isn't. I am still bleeding, I don't know how long it will take for my body to be back to normal. I feel tired and sick and I am taking each minute as it comes but I smile on.
I cuddle Ted that little bit closer, I try to show him everything is ok and that Mummy is alright because it worries him to see me cry.
I hold Joe that little bit tighter because I know he is hurting as well. He had those dreams too.
I know it will take time and we will come out of this and we will keep trying. One day we will add to our family but it wasn't our time.
It wasn't your time.
Saturday, 29 August 2015
Potty training is in full swing! Ted has been doing so well and with it being a bank holiday we thought it was best to make the most of 4 days with us all at home to finally crack it. We did attempt to get him to use the toilet and scrap potty's altogether but it didn't feel right for him so a potty in the living room is what we settled on.
We decided to leave him without anything on his bottom half so that he could feel when he needed to go. Last week I tried him with the potty training pants from the Asda Little Angels Range. He liked them but they made him feel like he still had a nappy on and he was happy to wee in them rather than head for the potty. We want to keep them on hand though for car journeys and short trips 'just in case'.
Since having his nappy off this morning we have had both a wee and a poo in the potty without having to prompt him. Of course we checked every 15 minutes or so to remind him and see if he was ready but when he felt he needed to go off he popped and called us when he was done. He is so happy with himself and we take him to the toilet so that he can flush it away himself!
Here are our '8 Potty Training Essentials'
A Potty - Of course, unless you plan to use the toilet in which case a toilet seat (specially for toddlers) and a stool will be perfect. We got our stool from Ikea and the seat from the Aldi Specialbuys.
Potty Training Pants - Should you decide to use these, as mentioned before we just have them for car journeys etc.
Bed mats - These go under the sheets for added protection at night time. We actually used these before Ted started potty training in case his nappy ever leaked.
Spare pants and trousers - Once you have reached the stage where your toddler is ready to wear pants you might find there are still accidents. Keep a stock of pants and trousers close by and plenty in their nursery bag too!
Potty Training Books - It really does help for a child to be able to visualise the potty training process and how it works. Our Pirate Ted's Potty book was brilliant and helped Ted to get excited about learning to use the potty.
Wipes - Toilet roll isn't the easiest thing to use with potty training, there are a huge amount of specialist toilet wipes on the market but why waste your money. Keep your regular wipes to hand for teaching them the 'front to back' technique and you will need them for those times when they don't quite make it and operation clean up is needed! We usually use the Aldi Mamia wipes because that is where we shop on a weekly basis but I actually like the Asda Little Angels wipes which have recently been supported by Mumsnet and are just as good.
Hand Towel and Soap - For good hygiene it makes sense to train your child to wash their own hands after using the potty. Making hand washing an important part of daily routine can be a fun thing for a toddler. We got Ted some special fun hand wash which is Bubblegum scented and I am off to get a Palmolive Aquarium bottle soon with a little turtle in which he will love. The Cuddledry Bamboo Hand Towel is a lovely little gift to make your toddler feel special and you can rest assured it is soft on their skin and antibacterial. We will be featuring a full review on the blog this week!
Finally one thing that is definitely needed is time and patience. This could take anything from a few days to a few months to get into a routine but keep at it and always remember to praise your child, they will be so pleased with themselves knowing you are proud of what they have achieved.
*I have featured products I was sent as samples in this post but all opinions are my own
Having worked with TENA in the past on a few campaigns I was delighted to work with them on the SOS Mummy Survival kit. This kit was designed to help Mum's overcome life's daily obstacles.
"For mums, our daily routine is never as simple as we’d like it to be. Whether we’re battling tired feet from running after our tottering toddler, or skipping a hair-wash day as our four-year-old can’t quite get the hang of dressing themselves in the morning. Whatever obstacles mums might face, light bladder weakness certainly shouldn’t be one of them!"The kit contains lots of handy aids to make day to day life that little bit easier. In my kit were...
SOS Shopping bag - Perfect to pop in the car for those emergency trips to get supplies, I hate using carrier bags so this was welcomed to add to my reusable bag collection.
Hand Sanitiser - This is going to be a welcomed addition to my handbag this summer. I usually rely on baby wipes when out and about as hand washing and drying often means getting soaking wet with a toddler and can be a lengthy process. This gel offers instant reassurance that all the germs have been busted in seconds!
Dry Shampoo - I am not ashamed to say I probably use this stuff once or twice a week. I have such long hair that I put off washing it for as long as possible. An hour to wash and blow dry is a rarity for busy Mums so this stuff is a must have.
Bio Oil - I have tiger stripes, most of us do. I am not ashamed of them but sometimes, when wearing a bikini (crikey that's a sight for sore eyes!) I wish that they weren't as prominent. I am hoping this miracle oil will help to fade them slightly so I can make room for more when we get round to baby #2.
Gel Cushions - The wildest night I have had in a while involved free mocktails at a local bar in a pair of Converse All Stars but hey, sometimes those Converse can give me sore feet too! These little cushions will be great when I brave wearing heels next and will keep me on my feet for ever more.
TENA Lights - For those Oooops moments! These have been named as ‘Mum’s Hero Health Product’ by Prima Baby and Pregnancy and are great for Mum's who suffer from slight bladder weakness from having children.
Take a look at them for yourself, and free samples can be ordered online at www.lightsbytena.co.uk.
Chocolate Tea from Teapigs - This isn't actually as awful as it may sound. It has a mild fruitiness that you get from dark chocolate and is a welcomed change to the usual English breakfast tea.
Personalised Apron - This is a gorgeous present for me. I only own one apron so adding this to my collection was fab, especially as it says Jade Loves Blogging on it!
Sunday, 23 August 2015
These activities are only 'almost' free because they may involve a little bit of petrol or a few ingredients but I can guarantee they will waste a few hours and keep the kids amused.
Visit the Local Park
Unless you live right out in the sticks the likelihood is that you have a park near you. Our village has one, so does the next village and the next one and so on. Towns and cities will have bigger parks and some will be more exciting than others but we all have them. They are free to use and you can really make the most of them by taking lunch out with you, packing a ball or some garden games and inviting friends. We walked to our local park yesterday and a group of about 4 or 5 families had pitched up. They had their picnic, games and friends and were having a great time!
If you are not a confident baker yourself then pick up some pre-made cupcakes with the weekly shop, you can pick these up for under a pound and let the kids go wild decorating them! Butter icing or royal icing are super easy to make and you can get creative with the colours. I love this 4 Piece Silicone Decorating Bottle Kit from OXO. It makes decorating cakes so much easier than using a piping bag and is brilliant for little hands. They are also really easy to clean as you can turn the silicone bottle inside out to get into all the nooks and crannies!
Visit the Library
Our local library is in the next village so this could cost you a bit of petrol money/bus ticket but is completely free once you are there. The children can pick up a library card, browse a huge selection of books, CD's, DVD's and Games and lots even have activities running through the holidays. For smaller children the libraries are often linked to the Spurgeon's or SureStart centres for group sessions. Why not make the trip educational by setting the kids a challenge or a quiz that they need to use the books to answer or who can find the silliest story name.
Home Summer Camp
Set a tent up in the garden along with everything you would need for a camp out. Get them to invite a friend over and either sleep out under the stars or just pretend for the day. Toast marshmallows and make smores while sipping on a cup of hot chocolate.
|Our den in the garden|
Be a...............for the day!
Pick a profession like a photographer, farmer, builder, fireman etc and find activities centred around those roles.
- Let them explore the local area capturing photo's of wildlife and plants.
- Plant your own flowers, fruit and vegetables.
- Get your DIY on and build something or let them help you design and revamp a room in the house.
- Give them a health and safety checklist and ask them to point out possible dangers in the home and your town.
Think outside of the box and let them try at being mini-grown-up's for the day!
|Ted being a Builder for the day!|
Finally while all this is going on you can have a bit of time to enjoy as hot cuppa for a change. If you are out and about the best way too keep your drink piping hot is with a travel mug. I take mine everywhere with me now, it saves me money too as I am not shelling out for hot drinks wherever I go. I have the OXO Good Grips Travel Mug and it's no spill lid is brilliant when you are on the go. It holds a full mug of tea and keeps it hot for over an hour.
I would love to know what other 'almost free' activities you have been up to with the kids so please let me know your suggestions in the comments!
Enjoy the rest of the summer!
*I was sent the OXO Good Grips products for review but all opinions and ideas are my own
Tuesday, 11 August 2015
We are only a family of 3 so don't buy nearly as much shopping as some bigger families so I would be keen to see how this works for them. Overall though the bags are super strong and really handy. We probably would have gasped at the price tag of £16.99 but since using them they are actually worth investing in and we will continue to use them in the future.
Finally here is a picture of Daddy being 'SuperDad' carrying all of the bags at once into the house...because that's what Daddy's do!
Thursday, 6 August 2015
|Meeting the Twirlywoo's|
|Listening too Ella Woodward - Deliciously Ella|
|Meeting these babes! Catching up with lots of my blogging besties |
and some new friends too!
|Breaking a Guinness World Record.|
|Listening to my friend and blogging hero Lucy Heath - Capture By Lucy.|
|Spending time with these two gorgeous ones, |
Mrs Shilts and Mrs Bishop.
|Consuming this lot...|
My Feedback from the BritMums Live Survey
I unfortunately came away utterly exhausted and hit a brick wall when it came to my blog. I felt like my blog wasn't quite up to scratch and had a huge dose of writers block. It has taken me well over a month to get back on the horse and I still feel like I don't have a sense of direction. I found so many of the speakers have a niche subject whereas my blog is a bit of everything. I am not a 'parent blogger' or a 'craft blogger' I don't write about one set thing so how am I expected to find my 'brand' and market it when I don't really know what my brand is?
All of these thoughts were totally overwhelming and I decided to take some time out, take a small step back and then get back in the game. You will be pleased to know I am going to keep writing and am pretty sure my mish mash blog of anything and everything will streamline itself some day but for now I am doing what I love and hoping you love reading it!
Finally...and on a more positive note I wanted to give a huge high five to my sponsors Hippychick for helping towards my attendance for the event. It means a lot to have great brands supporting me so thank you! They have a great post over on their blog this month about transitioning your toddler from their cot to a bed so do pop by for a read when you have a sec.