Thursday, 18 August 2016

Sometimes It's Tough!

I have decided to share this picture because sometimes pregnancy is hard. It is exhausting having a surge of strange hormones in your body, not knowing how you might react to every day issues and being totally out of control of your own emotions at times. 

Pregnancy Hormones Motherhood

This week I have cried because our holiday was over and tonight I cried over everything and nothing. People don't always understand that sometimes it is possible to cry even without anything actually being wrong with you. 

I am not depressed, I don't have much to be sad about and I have a beautiful family and life. I am pregnant...hormonal and sometimes it isn't easy. I am the woman on the left loving her life and embracing her bump and pregnancy glow but I am also the lady on the right who feels emotional, achey and a little bit scared about everything all at once...and that is ok!

Thursday, 4 August 2016

2nd Trimester Catch Up and VBAC Update

I cannot believe I am writing this but I have just entered my 3rd Trimester!

I have no idea where the past few weeks have gone but now at 27 weeks we are only a few short months away from meeting our baby!


I am relieved to say the sickness has well and truly worn off. I think it went at about 18 weeks and I have gone back to being able to eat most food again, obviously avoiding the pregnancy no no's. It is such a change from the HG I suffered with in my first pregnancy and it feels great to be able to function without the underlying nausea of all day sickness lingering. 

I have slight sciatica symptoms with sore hips making sleeping a bit difficult at the moment so keeping an eye on that. I also have the pleasure of weird pregnancy dreams coming back, not something I missed from last time round so night times are a bit of a struggle. I also have consistent low blood pressure of 90/60 which is pretty normal for me but drops sometimes making me feel really dizzy and out of breath. I plan to get my iron levels checked when I have my 28 weeks bloods too just in case I need a top up as some days just climbing the stairs is a killer! 

No cravings yet, I didn't have any with Ted either and am making sure I eat a nice balanced diet and treat myself when I feel like it. 


Baby girl seems to be developing well with her 20 week scan measurements all perfect, she has short legs like her Mama and a chubby little tummy like her big bro but all that could change. She is a strong baby, a lot more active than Ted ever was and I am enjoying all those kicks, perhaps not in the middle of the night though! 

She has lots of beautiful clothes already and I am planning a baby shower for September with lots of pastel colours and a hot air balloon theme. She also has a name which we love and it is really nice to be able to talk about her with close friends and family. 

Birth plans...

I have had 1 appointment with the VBAC team at our local hospital and am in discussions about possibly giving birth in a birth centre which is attached to the hospital but this will be a big fight on our behalf to persuade them I am not as high risk as I look on paper. 

The VBAC team went through a debrief from Ted's birth and despite me being under the impression that his shoulder got stuck and they 'had' to do the emergency c-section that was far from the story. My notes don't mention his shoulder getting stuck or him being under any stress which was what I always thought happened. It turns out that they were probably being overly cautious as they thought he was going to be bigger than he was and if he was bigger he 'may' have got stuck. So essentially the VBAC midwife told me that had it been her choice she would have let me go on my own a bit longer as I was labouring well. Therefore I may have been able to have a vaginal birth but that wasn't the outcome. 

So where does this leave me now? She said that I am actually a great candidate for a VBAC as I have shown I can labour well but the birth centre where I want to have the baby sees me as a 'high risk' because I have a scar. The next step is to meet with the matron who is in charge of the midwife led unit to see if she will consider accepting me there. 

My main reasons for wanting to have the baby there is that they have 3 birthing pools and I want to try for either a water birth or at least use it for pain relief. It also has a much more homely atmosphere and given our experience this past year and Ted's birth being quite traumatic I want to avoid that clinical hospital environment unless truly necessary.

Other symptoms...

Round ligament pains - lots of stretching as my bump gets bigger

Swollen feet after long days
Gone up 2 bra sizes!
Super shiny hair
Strong nails
Glowing skin
Drinking more water

We have a couple of holidays planned before baby arrives and are enjoying spending time as a family of 3. Ted is excited about baby but has no interest in feeling her kicks (he has a short attention span!). 

Hopefully I will be able to update you a few more times before she arrives and I have a Baby Shower Gift Guide coming up soon with lots of lovely products for you to check out! 

Thursday, 28 July 2016

It's a Girl!

I realised that I forgot to share the news over here from a few weeks back. Sorry guys I think life just got a bit busy but here is our gender reveal! We are having a baby girl! 

Ted is over the moon and we are loving the excitement of having one of each. I got stuck into buying lots of pretty girlie things and Joe is looking forward to having a little princess to spoil! 

Friday, 1 July 2016

Disney's The Lion Guard Toys

Rewind back to 1994 and the release of The Lion King in UK cinema's. Where you there? 
I was only 6 at the time but I remember watching it for the first time and was in awe at the songs, got chills every time Scar was on the screen and shed a few tears when 'Simba's Daddy' died. My little brother who is now 21 was a huge fan and actually got through 2 copies of the video as he watched it so often! The second movie was a huge hit too with the lovable rogue Kovu melting everyone's hearts including Simba's daughter Kiara.
Fast forward to 2016 and there is a new kid on the block...Simba has had a second child and Kiara's younger brother Kion wants in on the action. Alongside a colourful team of animal friends he embraces his destiny and forms The Lion Guard! 
The Lion Guard series on Disney Junior follows Kion and his buddies as they take off on brave adventures to defend the Pride Lands. We love the show and it is so heart warming being able to share the magic of The Lion King with my little boy. Ted's favourite character is Beshte the hippo who is The Strongest in the Lion Guard. The other characters consist of Ono, a Stalk and The Keenest of Sight, a fun loving honey badger called Bunga who is The Bravest, Fuli the cheetah who is clearly the fastest and of course Kion who is The Fiercest. Together they make quite a team!
As with all Disney films and shows we knew there would be some great toys to accompany the release and we have been lucky enough to get a sneek peek of the new toys which go on sale on 2nd July. Ted's little eyes lit up when he opened our delivery and he played with them all afternoon!

We were sent the Kion figure that comes with an interactive toppling wall, the figure is really sturdy and the wall fits together like a puzzle which makes it easy for little hands to put together. RRP £9.99
Two packs of minifigures that come in 'blind bags' as my son quite rightly pointed out to me (he watches too many YouTube unboxings!) These are £2.99 each and there is a special limited edition Bunga to hunt down. These packs are so popular with children and if you are clever in the store you can work out the shape of the character to try and avoid tip!
Finally was the Collectable Lion Guard set with all of the characters. I think this is by far my favourite set as the figures are really well made, have great attention to detail. Ted loves his Beshte figure and we had a great time running through the characters while he told me who each one was. This set is really good value at £12.99 RRP

Here is a little video of Ted's run down of all of the characters. If you want to join in with lots more Lion Guard fun and be in with the chance of winning some prizes hop over to Twitter on 6th July at 1pm and join in with the Twitter Party just follow #LionGuardToys, hopefully we will see you there!

Monday, 9 May 2016

First Trimester Update

As I approach 14 weeks pregnant I thought it would be a good time to note down how the first trimester has been for me second time around.

I found out I was pregnant at about 5-6 weeks. We have been TTC for almost a year and with our miscarriage in September I allowed myself and my body a while to get back on track. I am quite confident we conceived around Valentines....I know it's one of those babies!!

I actually took a test the day before my period was due as I am super impatient and had been doing tests constantly for months but this time I didn't feel the pang of disappointment and as that little cross displayed I began to well up. I was filled with excitement and an awful fear of miscarrying again, something that has stayed with me the whole way through my first trimester.

Pushing my worries to one side I showed Joe the test and he was over the moon. Obviously we have had Joe's health concerns hanging over us which meant it was hard for either of us to think about the future. At times I felt like the baby was being pushed to one side but we had so much on our plates we just didn't want to get ahead of ourselves.

I had very few symptoms for the first couple of weeks. Mainly tiredness until the nausea kicked in around 8 weeks. I haven't been nearly as sick as I was with Ted but the nausea, heightened sense of smell and food aversions have been a real pain. I couldn't open the fridge or cook anything for weeks without being sick. At 13 weeks I am coping better with things finding my own ways to deal with things like holding my breath as I quickly open the fridge, eating little and often, making sure my stomach never gets empty and listening to my body when it needs to rest.

Other symptoms I have had...

Sore boobs
Metallic taste in mouth
Heavy discharge
Round ligament pains
Floaters in vision
Low blood pressure

I also had to go to hospital at 11 weeks for a scan as I had brown discharge and cramping which worried me. Luckily baby was fine and the nurse said it was nothing to worry about but always best to get checked out.

We have decided to find out the sex of the baby and will have our 20 week scan just after our wedding in June. I am trying not to think of baby as being either a boy or a girl as I don't want to get my hopes up either way. My family and Joe are all convinced it's a girl as my symptoms are so different but I am well aware that each pregnancy can be so different regardless of the sex.

I have a meeting with the VBAC team as well as my usual consultant as I plan to have a vaginal birth following Ted's c-section. I really wanted a water birth but I am classed as a 'high risk' pregnancy so that may be off the cards.

My belly popped this weekend which was much earlier than it did with Ted. I have quite the bump on me now and I am feeling the strain of having a toddler to take care of whilst battling pregnancy exhaustion...Hoping things pick up in a few weeks!

Thursday, 28 April 2016

When It's Dark Look for Stars

Some of you may have been wondering where I have been lately. I feel like a bit of a stranger on my own blog right now and it has been months since I last wrote anything so please be gentle with me.

We have had months of what can only be described as an emotional roller coaster.

It all started really from the day we decided to go ahead and book our wedding date and venue. Our dream venue had a cancellation so we went for it! This was in late February and the wedding is on 4th was going to take a lot of planning but we could do it right?

Days later while I was trying on what would become my chosen wedding dress, Joe was rushed to hospital with acute gastritis and was in a lot of pain. Luckily his stomach hadn't been too badly damaged so some medicine and a strict diet plan meant he was well enough to go home. We had no idea that was just the start of our worries.

Not long after leaving the hospital Joe found a large tumour in his buttock. It has baffled countless doctors and he has been poked and prodded constantly. MRI'S,  Ultrasounds, CT scans and had 3 Biopsy's. Weeks of not knowing if it was benign or the dreaded C word have resulted in worry, sleepless nights, lots of tears and endless hospital visits. The tumour appeared on imagery to be 'nasty' but the first 2 biopsy results came back clear of cancerous cells so a 3rd open biopsy was been carried out.

This week we sat for 2 hours anxiously waiting before being told that unfortunately the 3rd biopsy showed cancerous cells and Joe has been diagnosed with a low grade fibromyxoid sarcoma. This type of sarcoma (a soft tissue tumour) is extremely rare but fortunately where it is located should be straightforward to remove. It is also encapsulated meaning it won't spread but there is a small chance of recurrence which means Joe will need regular checkups for the next 10 years.

Joe is perfectly well in himself which to him is frustrating. Despite having a bum cheek like Kim K you wouldn't think there was anything wrong with him. He currently has no symptoms and he is at work until his surgery date keeping busy and generally enjoying a bit of normality. I am so proud of how strong he is being and although we have had lots of tears I think this has made us appreciate our beautiful family and want to make the most of every single day together.

The light at the end of the tunnel...

Amongst all this madness we also discovered we are expecting Baby #2! Those of you that read regularly will know we have been trying for a baby for a long time now and after our miscarriage in September we are over the moon to be expecting again. I have been so anxious about the pregnancy especially with all of the stress we have been through with Joe's diagnosis but we have a strong, healthy, happy baby in there and we are so desperate to get back to normality by the time baby is due.

I feel like I have aged 10 years in the last 3 months and boy does something like this make you see the world in a whole new light! We have had to be so brave and poor Ted has had a really tough time of things too but we are trying to keep life as normal as we can for him right now. He knows Daddy has been poorly and kids aren't stupid but he seems much happier at the moment and we all have high hopes that Joe's op will go well and he will kick cancer's butt!

So that is where we are at right now. 12 weeks pregnant, 6 weeks from our wedding day and keeping everything crossed for a bright and happy future.

Life is short. Family is important and Love is everything!

Thursday, 18 February 2016

I See Me Review and Discount Code

Who do you love? 

I love my boys. The biggest one, my fiance Joe and our little boy Ted. Sometimes I think it is lovely to remind Ted how much he is loved and that was where I See Me came in...

I See Me is a brilliant company who create unique personalised childrens books and they have a special edition called Who Loves Me? which I was lucky enough to be sent a copy of.

The book poses the question Who Loves....Ted? This is where the personalisation comes in. You can add your childs name and then a different person who loves them on each page! We were able to include myself and Joe, Grandparents, Auntie's Uncles and his Godparents and Godsister. Squeezing in all of Ted's favourite people and letting him know how much they love him. 

You can even add your childs full name and date of birth which is at the front and back of the book along with a personalised message.

The book arrived complete with beautiful matching stickers and it was everything I hoped it would be. A fab hardback book with glossy cover and colourful artwork. I especially love the little hidden animals on the pages and the abstract style of the landscapes.

When we opened it Ted asked straight away if I could read it to him and as I turned each page I watched his eyes light up. Page and page went past, telling him who loves him and just how much, then the last page came and that was me done...

A blubbering mess of a Mother who just had a reminder of just how special her child is to her and these final words...

"Our love for you runs oceans deep and mountains high, it circles the sun and crosses the sky. It reaches up to the stars and surrounds all the earth and has cradled you gently since the day of your birth"

The only negative I did have was that it mentions 'The Heavens' which for us as a non-religious family was a bit strange to see in a book like this and perhaps could be changed for something more neutral. That is just our opinion but I do like to give honest feedback. This will not stop us from reading the story to Ted and I am sure he hears about Heaven and Earth quite often and will as he grows up. It certainly doesn't detract from what a beautiful story is being told and I still love the book completely! 

The website also sections the stories into For Girls and For Boys which probably isn't going to go down too well with today's parents, gender stereotyping is a bit of a touchy subject at the moment. 

Despite those two points I have made I do love the story and so does Ted, he asks me to read him "the who loves Ted book" and has learnt much of it off by heart. I have seen a few other books on the I See Me website which I like the look of too like Goodnight Little *insert name* and Hello World which would be great for a newborn gift!

They are also offering 20% discount for the next 48 hours with the code Celebrate as it's their 15 year anniversary!